| Wow its been awhile |
[27 Apr 2007|04:43pm] |
I've been doing really good lately. School is going great for me and I am getting good grades. I have an amazing boyfriend and I'm just happy. =]
I'm going to start posting again.
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| Tim had sex with another girl. |
[09 Nov 2006|11:25am] |
He said it wasnt sex. That they just "almost" did it. As far as Im concerned though, yourpenis+hervagina=sex.
It wasnt while we were together.
Just right after the last time we went out.
When he was still telling me he loved me.
Shes prettier than me.
I hate it.
I cant get the picture of them out of my head.
I hate it.
I hate it.
I want her to disapear.
I want all the girls who he's done shit like this to me with to just disapear.
I cant leave him.
I dont have anything else.
I cant leave him.
I dont know what to do.
Im so worthless.
Im so ugly.
Ill never be enough.
I want to have a baby.
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[08 Nov 2006|06:06pm] |
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I'm not reading entries today. I really dont have the patince. My throat is really sore. I promise to read them the next time I get on.
I've finaly decided to give up on this fairy tale love shit. I'm not going to look for it. If there is really a prince charming out there who wants to save me from this shit, he can find me. Ive been putting WAY too much time and effort into finding him.
&I kinda really just have alot I want to get off my chest. So this is probaly going to be one of those long ranting updates that I might post than decide I dont want anyone to read, but I've been bottling up alot of my emotions lately and I just want to get it all out. So I am sorry if I offend you and no, I dont need you're fucking attention. Im doing this to realive stress so if you are a stupid bitch like the stupid bitch Im talking about who runs her mouth too muchm turn around hoe. Get a life =]
I KNOW THAT TIM TREATS ME WRONG. &I am really sick of people telling me that he does. I know he does, I really do. But I have been attatched to him for so long, its not as easy as it sounds to just up and leave him. For all I know, Tim is the best I will ever get, and untill I know different, thats how I will act. The thing is, when he is around- he makes me happy. I know its stupid and such, but I find SO much comfort in being held, and cuddled. Maybe there is something wrong with that, but its just the way I am.
I am really stressed out about my school. I love it there but I hate that it seems that no one from back home misses me or even cares that I am gone. It really really hurts my feelings, especialy the people who I ask to hang out with me, to give me any day or time and Ill hang out with them- and they never do.
I hate how people keep bringing the past up. I did a stupid thing last year. But it was last year. Its not only unfair to me to hold a grudge, but its not healthy to live so far in the past. I really honestly think that Allie, Emma Francis, Kimberly Chew, Alyssa Oharra, Tara Clayfield and Alex Diegel were the only people who had any right to be mad at me. Because each and every other one of you, you did something that made me feel like I couldnt trust you with something like that. You either broke too many promises, lied too many times or repeated too many things that I told you in confidence. &I apologized for that so many times. The thing that really gets me though, is that the majority of the people who actualy talked to me about the situation, said that it wasnt just about this year, its about the rumor that was never endingly pressumed to be true about eighth grade year. &That makes me so mad. That rumor was a horrible twist of a brutal truth that I am not even going to bring up. But I am so hurt that you guys are holding against me something still, not only from two years ago, but something that wasnt my fault. &The fact that after that- I was in the hospital, and no one fucking cared. You all spun lies about that too or made fun of me. I dont see whats so fucking funny about it. I was abandoned, when I needed soemone the most you all abandoned me. What does that say about you? I never claimed to be perfect. &I dont pass judgment. But I do think you should sit in judgment on yourselves.
I know I am going to get so much shit for this, but its not like Ill loose anyone, right? Becuase you all already so far gone.
I am so angry right now.
I just dont know.
I want everyone to know though, this isnt directed at any one person.
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[07 Nov 2006|03:20pm] |
Stole this from someone I don't even know.
- list 10 things you want to say to people but know you never will.
- don't say who they are.
- disable comments.
- never discuss it in livejournal again.
1. If you didn't repeat pretty much everything I ever said to you, I wouldnt of had to lie to you. I'm mad at you for exposing me to the live style you had when I was still so impressionable, and while I know that I am ultimately responisble for the way my life goes, I blame you a little for alot of the bad choices I made when it came to that one really crucial time of my life. I know that you lie to me all the time, and I never say anything about it. I hate the way you use to yell at me for everything, even the things I didnt do. You pushed my buttons all the time just because you knew you could, and I never herd an apology and I hate that. I hate when you complain about things that you have the power to change.
2. I hate the way you treat me. I wish I had the power to leave you.
3. When we talk, I feel stupid for the way things use to be. I know I dont know you too well and we only ever talk online. Sometimes when we talk though it seems like we have so much in common and it kinda makes me want to hang out or something, gives me the feeling we could be really good friends.
4. I'm sorry for what happened between us, but I know that Im better off without you in my life. You were never really a good friend.
5. Sometimes I wish you werent gay, not because I have feelings for you, just cause I think you would be good for me, but at the same time I hate that you might not be with me anyways, even if you swung my way. I live with it though, I miss being close friends.
6. I know you tried to steal my boyfriend, bitch.
7. I feel like we should be together. Things feel so right with you. I miss you all the time. I hate the way you can live like you dont love me the day after we have a long heart felt conversation concerning the fact that you still do. I wish you would save me, because I know that you're the only person who could.
8. I think that Ive said it all. SO:;
9. I want someone:;
10. to ask me to hang out =]
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[14 Oct 2006|01:02pm] |
Im almost positive that today at homecoming Tim is going to ask me out.
I thought that was what I wanted and right now Im just not sure.
All week Ive been having romantic dreams about another boy.
I know youre thinking they are just dreams.
But my dreams are never just dreams.
Last night in my romantic dream about this boy who i think is amazing but is totaly out of my league Tim was there. And he did some really horrible things. Im really scared. I know youre probaly thinking "Just say no" But If I do that I flush one of my best friends down the drain. I need some help.
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[02 Oct 2006|04:28pm] |
I cant wait for Homecoming. =].
Tim is taking me. Well I guess Im taking him.
I NEED TO GET MY DRESS! Who wants to come?
I just want an orange dress.&One that makes me look good. =]
So, me and Tim are probaly, most likely, almost deffiantely getting back together. I know. Alot of you think its a bad idea. But he makes me happy. I am comfortable with him and I think that this time things might work. My dad isnt happy about it which kind of hurts my feelings. Like, I always put up with his girlfriends, no matter how much I dont like them. I wish he could just understand and respect the fact that no one is perfect and no boy will ever treat me as well as he hopes. &Tim makes me happy. I feel like that should be enough.
Schools getting better.
Talking to more people.
OH! The Devil Wears Prada show was HOTT! =]
Dead like me, I left before they played cuase like all the bands before them sucked completely. So me and Tim went to my house and soaked up some love.
Hes such a sweetheart.
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| Its been awhile. |
[24 Sep 2006|01:35pm] |
I decided to upsate on account of an amazing night last night.
I FINALY GOT TO SEE TIMOTHY!!!=]
&Of course I spent the whole night attatched to his hip.
But lets start from the start.
Amanda was over for the weend so lets do a quick overview of Friday untill now:;
FRIDAY:;
SCHOOL-
I got there early, as usual.
Walked around for a little and than wiated in Commons for Amanda to get there while I read over chapter 2 in Sociology.
FIRST HOUR:; [forensics]
Measured the room becuase tomorrow we have to do a sketch of a crime scene that Mr. Gomola is setting up right there in the class room.
SECOND HOUR:; [soiciology]
Went over the test that I didnt do as well as I had hoped on. The questions werent from the book. Im not the biggest fan of Mr. Razacks teaching.
THIRD HOUR- [englishh]
Is always a blast. We had a disccussion. I got to talk to Fonzi =]. I have a little crush on that boyy. He's suppa cute.
LUNCH:;
Well, I ate. lol. I was kinda hoping Marrone would sit with us today becuase I asked him yesterday and than lunch was over like two seconds later. But he wasnt there =[
FOURTH HOUR [health]
I didnt have too much fun. I sat with Tracci and Souna. But the assingment was really boring.
FIFTH HOUR- [Geometry]
Talked to Andria and Bryan the whole time. What else is new though?
SIXTH HOUR [history]
Boreborebore. Dilano made an ass of himself, everyone laughed. & again, what else is new?
After school my mom picked me and Mandy up and she had the baby with her. We picked Deb up from work and that swung by home so I could switch my heels out for my flats. We dropped Debony and the baby off and than we met Ruth, Alan and Mussa up at the mall. My mom and Ruth got thier nails done while Mussa and Alan did thier thing, Mandy and I looked for homecoming dressed. I found this silver one at JC Penny that Im probaly going to get. I reallly really like it =]. WE SAW SPOHIA!!!! I was so excited. That girl is a roit.
Than we were by the food court, sitting down and guess who walks up to Subway? THATS RIGHT! Fonzi. I called my Aunt Ruth and was like "You have to come check this our, the boy I like is up here." She approved. We talked for like two seconds but than I had to go get my food.
Hmm. I got a new shirt from Charolette Russe, its hot, a new headband and some checkered leggings.
Came home, ate&watched friends.
SATURDAY:;
Got up and watched friends.
Cleaned.
Got ready.
Went to the Myspace Cafe to see The Devil Wears Prada.
As soon as I walked in I saw Scotty!!!!1 =]. I missed that boy.
Than he showed me to Timothy Micheal who automaticaly picked me up and gave me a 12 minute hug and a few kisses on the forehead.
I spent the whole night attatched to his hip almost..
We agreed not to get relationshippy though. Although we were making out for a good portion of the night.
Blahh.
We had lots of fun.
It was Mandy's first show!
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[04 Sep 2006|02:00am] |
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So a few days ago Alex pops back up and tells me he misses me and "I miss your laugh" "its yours so its wonderful" "I want to hear your voice" "I miss your face" "Come see me" and than everything and I got really excited about the whole thing. Alex was my first love and everyone knows that Im never going to stop feeling for him.
Than stuff seemed awkward so I said something about it and how I wasnt sure what to say and such and how I wanted to tell him everything and bleh he said so do it and I did and then he doesnt say anything back.
So I spend about six hours crying.
six fucking hours
Allie couldnt come over.
So I call Tim. Who is suppose to be my best friend and he ends up freaking out on me for nothing.
So pretty much I feel worthless and ugly and dumb and small and unworthy.
I hate knowing exactly what I need and knwing I wont get it.
What do I need?
I need someone to get there ass over here and pull the blakets off and look at me, without my makeup, in my sisters huge sweater with my messy hair and tell me that they care about me, that Im beautiful to them, that I mean something to them.
I need someone to love me.
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| Im just a little weak on my feet, would you light my candle? |
[03 Sep 2006|09:30am] |
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I went to my Uncle's on Thursday.
Stayed the night over there.
We got up early and went to Michigan Adventures which was a semi lame park but I had fun none the less.
We stayed at The Ramada, which was nice. Came home in the morning.
Eh. But someone IMed me on Thursday morning and I didnt recognizw the screen name so I asked who it was, they asked who I was. I said "you IMed me". They said my screenname just kinda popped onto their buddylist. So I said "Tell me who you are and Ill tell you if I know you".
"Alex Diegel".
Ech. I was so nervous. I didnt want to get into shit with him and argue and be upset before I went to my uncles. We didnt. We talked. Completely civil. It was strange though cuase just a few days befroe that I was writing about him in my personal journal that I keep. He was completely nice. =/.
Yeah. I miss him.
School starts the sixth.
Im nervouss! =]
But suppppppaaaa excited.
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| Last night |
[27 Aug 2006|02:15pm] |
I decided that boys suck and I need a rebound.
Truth be told, while Im not mad at Joe or anything stupid like that for leaving me, I do still like him and well that suckks. So I've decided I need a rebound. Some meaningless booty. Haha. I just wanted to say booty. But seriously, I need a rebound.
Echies.
Pratay today.
Someone take me to a fair.
I love life=]
&Allie.
Mars tonight.
FUCKING PIGOUT NIGHT TOMORROW.
=[Me&Alexandria Elizabeth Harrison have decided that becuase of school starting pigout night will be switched from Monday to Saturday so we can still stay the night together without school&dance getting in the way. Effective next week.
I KNOW WHAT SCHOOL IM GOING TO!
I just keep forgetting it its shore or view. Its lake something though.
=]yay for small bodies of water!!!
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[26 Aug 2006|08:52pm] |
So my sister sent Joe a message about how he has no balls becuase he used myspace to dump me. It sucks. I really dont mind. I mean- yeah it sucks... But I am getting a little to old to get worked up about boys who, while I care about- I dont have long term plans with. I wasnt in love and I didnt think it was gunna last forever. So I kinda wish everyone would just let it die so I can move on. I mean yeah, Im not mad at him for leaving me but you all know how much I hate being single and I really just dont feel like being alone right now.
Ech. On that note. I get to see Cayla tomorrow. Im very excited but at the same time Im a little nervous just considering my long lasting hearts for herr.
Bah.
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| Dumped on myspace |
[25 Aug 2006|04:55pm] |
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Joe broke up with me...
In a comment on my old myspace...
It sucks but I kinda expected it.
bad day though.
I need to get high.
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| Staring down the barrel of a 45 |
[22 Aug 2006|04:28pm] |
Hmm.
Yesterday I went to see accepted with Allie, Joe, Ashley, Dylan and BRANDON FRECKING HANAFORD.
Thats right folks. I havent seen that kid in like seriously maybe a year and a half? It was freakehh. I was in the living room at The Harrr Ress and Ash&Joe walk in [[which is expectable]] and than BAM, here comes Brandon. My jaw pretty much droped and I just stared for a second untill he asked "What?". I kinda just stammered "You...... uh, grew"
lol. Seriously, like seven inches.
Welp, yeah. Yesterday Allie had a drive at like nine so we woke up supperrr early and almost ran Joe&Ash over on the way to the driving school cuase they were driving with her and they were riding their bikes up there. Allies mom is so sweet.
Allies mom droped me off at home &MY ADORABLE NEPHEW had stayed the night =] Cuttieee. I love him so much. When I opened the door to my moms room and he was sitting on the bed all patiently while she was asleep. He smiled at me and threw his arms up. I love when he does stuff like that. I plucked him up and spent like an hour with him. It was like the good ole days, where for TEN MONTHS straight I got to wake up with him at 3:30 in the morning and get ready for school with him on my hip.
Welp, I barely got ready cuase I left my keys at Allies and I couldnt get into my room. I walked up to the driving school to keep Allie company for the hour she had to wait between Ashley&Joes drive and hers. We went to Taco Bell and her and Ash ate and we all shared like 7 refills of pop. Me and Ash waited at Tim Hortons while Allie drove for an hour. Than Me &Al went back to her house.
Me&Al hung around like BUMS untill she had to go to Drivers Training. I went to MOES and Correy fucking Lassen comes over and Moe was crying and everyone was happy. Eh. Good times.
Laterr on we all went to the movies.
I had alot more to write about now I dont want to.
I miss JOE really bad.
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[17 Aug 2006|03:58pm] |
I hung out with AMANDA YAXXXXXXX yesterday. &Johnathonnn.
Two of my favorite people ON EARFFFF.
I saw Joe.
Not for long.
I walked up to the drivers training place to walk Allie home and he sat around for a little with us while we figured out where we were going. But I got to see his goregous face and he gave me a kiss goodbye, and well thats good enough for me. I sure am crazy about that boy.
I am going to the Myspace Cafe today to see Tim becuase its been almost a fucking month. FAG. Ech. THOMAS might come &I still have to fucking call Joe and ask him to come. We might possibley be able to see the moon tonight. Me&Some lovely kids are gonig up on the catwalk to watch. Whos comin???
I love life.
&RUNNING.
&ALEXANDRIA!
&mySUPERdyke.
&MELONS.
&LIFE.
[[[p.s. JOSEPH SCHORSCH IS THE MOST SMEXEH FELLER ALIVE]]]
the end.
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[15 Aug 2006|12:28pm] |
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I did this bulletin on myspace
10 things I probably should say.
INSTRUCTIONS: Write ten statements, intended to different people - things you've always wanted to tell them. never tell which one is to whom.
1. I am mad at you for abandoning me when I needed you the most and making me feel like I was the bad person.
2. I am mad at you for believing the rumor that wasnt true and using it as a deciding factor to drop me completely when I felt I couldnt trust you with something big. How was I suppose to trust you after that? [okay, so this is more for two people?]
3. I am mad at you for expecting things from me that you would never even think of giving me. I wish we spent more time together. I hate seeing you cry, especialy over boys. I wish I was as important to you as he was.
4. I want to fall in love and its your fault that I cant becuase you have me terrified of everything, especialy getting hurt. I'm sorry for hurting you, more than anything. But you hurt me too and I am terribley upset with you for never apologizing for the wrong you did me. I still care about you and while I dont want to date you sometimes I still think about the old times and wish you were apart of my life.
5. I feel robbed that you werent always there. I wish you still called me the silly names you did when I was little. I am horrified that you are going to die before you get to see me do everything that I am doing mainly to make you proud. &I am mad at you becuase I feel like it doesnt matter to you.
6. I hate how we use to be so close and you let that stupid night screw things up between us. I wish you could have realized that I was so screwed up at that time. I wish you would have told me you liked me when you did, cuase maybe than I might still have a chance, sometimes I feel like it would solve everything. I wish we could be best friends again.
7. I am mad at you for trying to keep me from dating Joe. You claim to care about me but you are putting me through all this agony. Do you expect me to want to be with you ever after you put me through all of this? Do you think making me angry and making me cry is going to make Joe look any less apealing when the only time he makes me cry is when I laugh too hard?
8. I wish we would have known more about eachother before you asked me out. I am afriad that you dont like me as much as I like you. I dont expect us to last forever but I would like for us to last a long time... and I cant help thinking that you are going to break up with me even though we just started dating. I want to get closer to you and I want to know everything about you, but I am afraid that if I become to close to you, you're going to leave me like everyone else. I hate that you get yelled at like you do. I hate that it doesnt seem to bother you becuase I dont think anyone should really have to go through that. I am afraid I'm not good enough for you. I want you to fall in love with me. I'm afraid you might never see this.
9. I wish I could remember what our relationship was like and that I wasnt fresh out of the looney bin &drugged up on antiphsycotics when we were dating. I miss your family and spending time with them, how at home they made me feel. I wish we could be friends and I wish I could make up for whatever damage I may have caused you by being with you when I was.
10. I feel like you were trying to take advantage of how weak I was and make me do something I knew I wasnt ready to do. I really wanted to be with you and hurt me that you seemed to be preasuring me into being with you when I told you I wasnt ready yet. It also hurts me that you just droped me becuase I feel like you only did it becuase I wasnt ready to be with you. I wish we could still be friends.
& It felt really good just to type it. And now I want everyone to know who its about and such. I dont care what you think about it I just want to get it out.
ONE&TWO:;Are both directed at Ashley&Jenny.
THREE:;Is directed at my sister.
FOUR:;Is directed at Alex.
FIVE:;Is directed at My father.
SIX:;Is directed at Thomas.
SEVEN:;Is directed at Dylan.
EIGHT:;Is directed at Joe.
NINE:;Is directed at Christian.
TEN:;Is directed at Cayla.
I'm not exactly sure what I hope to come from this? Maybe a few of these people will see this? Maybe someone will see something and know how much it would mean to me if that person saw it and sent it to them, becuase everyone knows I wont and well, that would be nice, becuase I am pretty sure some people [[Ashley, Jenny, Chris, Joe&My dad]] wont see this unless someone shows it to them. I dont know. It just feels good to get this out. Maybe someone will let me know that I'm not wrong for feeling this. I am going to screen the comments here in case you would like to reply and dont want everyone to see. Let me know if you dont want it unscreened.
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[13 Aug 2006|10:24am] |
THURSDAY:;
Amber stayed the night. We rented movies. I passed out pretty early. We had fun. Not too much to tell.
FRIDAY:;
Woke up, Amber left. Meghan &I made plans. I got ready and such and went over there. Joe&Scott came over. We were going to walk to the movies but got a ride like after we walked a house away. We got there and walked around for a little. We saw Mike Pluff&Chelsea. We went to see RV. I was freezing the whole time. So of course Joe decided to squeeze the pop cup so his hands got realll cold and put them on my arms. It was fun. LMAO:; Okay. So, when were walking out of the theatre [[exactly one minute before the mall closes]] Scott decides he wants to try to run and get gum from the dollar store. So he and Meghan rushed there while me and Joe kinda lagged behind. He had his arm around my waist and mine was around his back. My head was kinda leaned up against his shoulder and we were talking. Some dumbfucks at Little Cesars asked if we were a couple. "No." Haha. We both said it. I was kinda afriad he might get mad untill I realized he said it to. Some people are so dumb. It makes me mad. Welp, we waited outside the honey tree for Frank to pick us up and than we went back to Meghans so Joe&Scott could get thier bikes and Meghan could get her stuff. Me and Meghan came back to my dads and the guys rode thier bikes to Joes. We watched movies and sat on the computer. Meghan called Scott informed us of his&Joes sausage fest [jp]. But he really did say that. So we made a comic about it. We eventualy went to bed.
But they all came back like we knew they would
Gotta get your fix in Hollywood.
SATURDAY:;
Meghan&I woke up suppa early and played on the computer, had waffels and got ready. We went to Allies for a few where we made fun of Marcus for being a stupid prick and trying to shit talk Joe to me and make me like Dylan. FGT. Walked to Joes. I layed on his floor the whole time cuase it was suppa comfy and well, for the most part everyone was in there with me untill they all magicly dissapeared or something. Than Joes mom drove us to Timmys. Meghan, Scott& I pretty much just went inside and talked to Timmys mom to start. She was really insanely nice and kept trying to make me eat. lmao. The guys made us go to the bike jumps which I didnt mind asside from the little pokey itchy thingies that got stuck all over my pants and gave me a rash on my legs. Oh well. It was worth it to watch Scott wipe out. lol. Um... what else... Oh. HAHA. OKay. So everyone decides they want to play football [&I cant play =[ becuase of how much trouble Ive been having with my abdomen and mothers demands to chill on being active] and they want to wait for this "Dani" girl to come over. Everyone is talking about what a slut she is. Especialy Danielle. Which was funny. She had me hating her before I knew what we were talking about. She gets there and I can tell by the clothes she isnt wearing that no one was exagerating. Black booty shorts. When I say booty, I mean booty. As in you could see it. Black sports bra and a poor excuse of a tee shirt over it that was cut so the arm droped down to the bottom of the shirt. Like all the way to the bottom. SLUT. SLUT SLUT SLUT SLUT SLUT!!!!!!! Danielle takled her and the stupid bitch is going to come sit by me and tell mer her whole fucking life story while I try not to laugh and include "I'm a slut" and "I like always dress slutty" Okay. Gay. I wanted to punch her. But I was nice =]. The rich boys left and just us Roseville folk were left. We all layed down comfortabley in Timmys huge living room in his huge house and watched Scary Movie Four. I wasnt pay much attention though becuase I already saw it and me and Joe we playing arounf. Biting eachothers faces, poking wars and tickeling eachother and such. He licked my eyelid. Akwarddd. After the movie the boys wanted to start a fire so we all went outside while they did that. My mom was on her way than though so we didnt really have alot of time for that. I pretty much just sat on Joe the whole time becuase, again I was freezing. As always. My mom took all the Roseville girls {which was only Meghan, Danielle &I] home. Me and Meghan came home and pretty much crashed after not even an hour. We were suppa tired. We sat in my dads spare room and chatted for a few first. Scott called me at like one thirty in the fucking morning. =] I was thrilled. Apparently someone was calling Timmys house. But w/e. All in all I've had an amazing weekend. I am really glad that I am finaly with Joe. I really like him and everytime I see him I like him that much more. I have to be one of the luckiest girls alive.
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[11 Aug 2006|09:55pm] |
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So, first of all, I was had plans to hang out with fly mama gama, Meghan. &Than we decided to mall it with our incrediabley amazing boyfriends. So Meghan, Scott, Joe and I went to the mall and went to see RV. It was suppa funny. &While right now I dont want to get into the details of the night cuase it would take suppa long, I will say that I had a great time. That I hope me &Meghan hang out more often. Ill update this more detailed later... &I deffinately have to have one ot the most amazing boyfriends on earff.
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[02 Aug 2006|10:12pm] |
lmfao.
I have a new hero.
I wish I could tell you why.
But its not my story to tell.
Well Dean is deffinately the hero.
&Today in school we were talking about smarter child so today:;
myx toxic love: Why is Dean such a pimp?
SmarterChild: For various reasons, I suppose.
lmao. I couldnt stop laughing.
Allie didnt feel well today.
I went to Ashley's.
DylHar&DylGar were there.
I use to really hate Dylan Garret, but I had alot of fun today.
We went back to the HAR home. &Allie still wasnt feeling too good.
Me, Ash& The Dyl's went for a swim.
Allie went to work with Mrs. Harrison.
My top fell off kinda.
Ashley&DylGar saw my boob.
Mucho embarassing.
The kid I like... his two best friends saw my boobs before he did?
Ech.
So apparently Joe planned on asking me out last night.
But than DylGar made them leave early.
bummerr. I miss that boy already =[
I didnt get to see him today.
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[01 Aug 2006|07:29pm] |
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YAY! for Mallory!!!
Joe still likes me.
I saw him yesterday =]
Im suppaaa happy
I LIKE HIM SO MUCH!
OMG! Okay so:;
YESTERDAY:;
School:;
Dean&Amber both were absent so I really didnt have anyone to talk to. Which turned out find becuase the kid that sits next to me is kinda cool. Mr. Penhorwood took Scotty's phone though so I couldnt play tetris. WHICH SUCKED.
I went to 7 eleven with my mommy. Than I went home and brushed my teefers& grabbed some clothes. THAN I CAME BACK HOME TO ALLIES =].
When I got here there was a note for me on the front door telling me just to come through and lock the door behind me that "we" were in the back swimming. I figured it would be her and Dylan. SURPRISE SURPRISE. It was her&JOE =]. I OFFICALY ENJOY SUPPA MUCH SWIMMING WITH JOSEPH SCHORSH. Seeing as he enjoys dunking me so he can kiss me under water. Which before yesterday I had never done before.
If you havent done it, I suggest you try.
We hung out at Allies, pretty much swam all day, aside from when we were watching Alice In Wonderland. It was explained to me why Joe had been so distant lately. Apparently Dylan told him he would never talk to him again if he went out with me.... TALK ABOUT UNREASONABLE. Im so sick of not being able to have a healthy relationship without feeling guilty about him liking me. ITS NOT MY FAULT that I dont like him.
BAHHHH!
We went to Ashley's house. Dillon, Allie, Joe and I all stayed the night.
=]JOE.
I really like him.
Hopefuly Dylan will come to his senses soon? Ashley says shes going to talk some logic into him.
Oh yeah, by the way if you havent figured it out yet....
I AM MAD SUPPA CRAZY ABOUT JOSEPH RAYMOND SCHORSH.
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[30 Jul 2006|08:26pm] |
Okay.
Ozzfest kicked ass.
Camping with Allie was amazing.
DEVIN IS AMAZING.
We could seriously be the same person.
Only that he got the penis.
For those of you who dont know.
I am kinda crazy about Joseph Schorsh.
Hopefuly thats going somewhere?
He had told me straight up he wanted to be my boo [not in those words. Im in a funkeh mood] But lately I havent seen him often and ranyranyrany. HES SO CUTE =]. AND )(*)(*)*)&^&*^$%&$%^*$ He is amazingly sweet. & Hes suppa comfy. &he is AN AMAZING KISSER. &For seriousness- you may think you know someone with pretty eyes. Untill you meet Joe... You dont.
MMMMPPP!!! CUTTING IT SHORT.
Going to Allies to gi swimming.
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